Currently kids all over the country are jumping for joy or locking themselves in their rooms crying all because a stranger gave the yes or no on their admission to college. While that part of my life is over (thank God!) and I've now graduated I still look back on that time and want to lock myself in a room and cry. The process is just awful and there is no way around it. I was very lucky because my parents did a great job of acting like it wasn't a huge deal but I took on the role of being absolutely panicked. I ate an entire cheesecake one day due to the stress. I kept telling myself I wasn't going to get accepted anywhere and the only places I was going to get into would set me up for a role of 'light bulb changer' in some large corporate office. The though of being rejected everywhere or the even scarier thought of getting in and graduating just become a nobody was just too much to handle. However, the older I get the more I realize that you end up where you want to end up. Sometimes you have to work harder to get there than others but you can define your own destiny.
The reality is, it is hard to accept that your daily decisions affect your life months and even years from today. It's hard to always strive for perfection and continue to push yourself. I find myself in a routine and struggle to break out to find new ideas or side project to work on. Maybe getting back to this blog will let me think outside of my daily routine.
Today the New York Times ran a Q and A of frequent college admissions questions and had them answered by a few high powered deans, it was pretty interesting. You can find the article here.
Friday, December 19, 2008
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